"And if you have a minute why don't we go..."

"...talk about it somewhere only we know..."
I'm literally lying in bed with my eyes closed, typing this...I'll proof read before I post, so...it's all good. I thought I'd write just because, well, I want to. I have nothing really big to say, no poetry, no lyrics, no la-dee-da. I'm just...here.


The past two weeks have been pretty cool actually. I started tutoring on campus, working with students who have a variety of learning disabilities, so it's been cool to get to know them and help organize, proof read, and rewrite final papers. It's been a challenge, because I have only considered working with younger students, and to work with college age students has required different teaching strategies. But it's been a lot of fun...it truly has.


I also started a new job recently, and every night that I work, I seem to meet new people and make more friends. It's always a blast being part of a team effort. I mean, I am really, really having fun with this new experience, so I would be hard-pressed to find anything to complain about. Plus, I get to work around one of my favorite bros, Jose, for whom I would probably do anything, since I think I owe him so much anyway!


And then the album! I get to listen to the rough mixes every day in my car, and I am super pumped about it! Honestly, it's going to be good, and I cannot wait to get feedback on it. I need to post to the HW blog, but I am definitely not going to do it tonight.


Finally, I just love my kids. I gotta say it, and I'll say it till I turn blue in the face and die --I JUST LOVE MY KIDS. They're the greatest, and I cherish every moment I have with them.


Now...I'm going to go to sleep...

Last Screams

After three a.m. walking

Through forsaken garden

Silver leaves they fall and kiss

Hallowed pale skin that the

Moonlight bathes hair and scarf

Blown in the crying wind

I stay the fear that I'll

Forget

No matter how

Brave we are

In cold like this

Hearts will freeze

I must stand tall

I must seem strong

They may say the

Last screams loudest

I won't make

A sound

Wrestle with the winter's peak

Suffering wondering

Limbs that creak and bow to be

The trellis above your head so

Weary but alive but

Trembling you sometime soon

Will succumb to it and

Leave this behind

No matter how

Brave we are

In cold like this

Hearts will freeze

I must stand tall

I must seem strong

They may say the

Last screams loudest

I won't make

A sound

Watching the Fall

I desire to escape
This prison of being
Outside, looking in
Embittered in want
To submit to disdain
And hating my heart
That still remains open
Raped and asunder
A dream just to be
Blissful in ignorance
Unfortunately though
Unwillingly omnipotent
Flows of information
Effortlessly drown my
Every sense like the
Din that roars and
Seeks to break what
I had, such candor
That I am afraid
Won't last long enough to
See me through this
Tortuous observing of
Grossly self-serving
Actions that beleaguer
Who I am, who I was
Who we were, no matter what
That we were meant to be
But now a picture of naught
Faith now destroyed
Trust that is no more
Such kind disemboweling
Perverse dance in the gore
Now I'm forced to watch
The strings that control
The autonomy now gone
A person that is no more
I still mourn for the passing
I still entreat and I hold
But in vain because there's nothing
But void, black and cold